This line resonated with me: There wasn’t a dramatic rock bottom. Alcoholism is more insidious than that.
I too have stopped drinking. I’m pregnant now so that helped but prior to pregnancy, I had become the caregiver for my mom and I made the decision to stop drinking. I just knew that the emotions I would experience going through her cancer journey would be too heavy to carry, and too easy for me to numb with alcohol, which in turn would give me space to act out in rage, anger, and not show up in the loving way she would need at that time. For me, it was just a hard stop and I haven’t missed it - yet. I can foresee myself possibly feeling the desire for it in the summer, when the sun is out, and patio life in Toronto is back on and it’s customary to have a margarita with friends, but I will say Toronto has done very well with catering to our sober needs through mocktails etc so I pray I can just keep going. I don’t miss wasting an entire day or two trying to nurse myself back to life the next day.
Anyway, I have to say I’m super proud and excited for you and can’t wait to read more about your journey, both with sobriety and belonging 🤎
#1 congratulations on your pregnancy. That’s amazing! So happy for you.
#2 I’m so incredibly sorry about your mom. Moving through those emotions sober was such a healthy choice. Not easy I’m sure but it was the right choice to not only show up for your mom like that but also yourself. Proud of you!
This line resonated with me: There wasn’t a dramatic rock bottom. Alcoholism is more insidious than that.
I too have stopped drinking. I’m pregnant now so that helped but prior to pregnancy, I had become the caregiver for my mom and I made the decision to stop drinking. I just knew that the emotions I would experience going through her cancer journey would be too heavy to carry, and too easy for me to numb with alcohol, which in turn would give me space to act out in rage, anger, and not show up in the loving way she would need at that time. For me, it was just a hard stop and I haven’t missed it - yet. I can foresee myself possibly feeling the desire for it in the summer, when the sun is out, and patio life in Toronto is back on and it’s customary to have a margarita with friends, but I will say Toronto has done very well with catering to our sober needs through mocktails etc so I pray I can just keep going. I don’t miss wasting an entire day or two trying to nurse myself back to life the next day.
Anyway, I have to say I’m super proud and excited for you and can’t wait to read more about your journey, both with sobriety and belonging 🤎
#1 congratulations on your pregnancy. That’s amazing! So happy for you.
#2 I’m so incredibly sorry about your mom. Moving through those emotions sober was such a healthy choice. Not easy I’m sure but it was the right choice to not only show up for your mom like that but also yourself. Proud of you!
Here if you ever need an ear. ❤️
BMay, I'm so so proud of you for all your hard work. Congratulations on reaching a whole 365 days of being present and choosing yourself. I love you.
I love YOU! And you know what you did, and I thank you for every milestone I reached. That convo meant everything to me. 💕