I had a trying week mentally last week and I feel it spilling into this week already. I took a step back to look at my problem areas. This is something I’ve taught myself to do along my mental health journey. Basically, it’s me looking back on the last week or so and understanding when I felt my worst and trying to connect it to an event or action.
Last Wednesday I had 3 drinks while I watched some shows with my sister. Normally that doesn’t have any sort of adverse effect on me but the next day, while I was not hungover, I was in such a mood.
Instead of listening to what my body was telling me, I doubled down. I didn’t drink on Thursday night but I stayed up far too late and Friday I was met by my attitude again.
I sort of isolated myself in my room for Friday night and Saturday because I know better than to bring that ‘tude out into the world. After feeling my feels I talked with my family about it and instantly felt a little bit better.
In the moment I don’t always see these things and make those connections. We are in an extremely trying time and especially seeing temps of “feels like -40” over the last week just made it all worse. I’m being gentle with myself, I’m not drinking, I’m trying to get good rest, I’m doing my yoga, and I’m (virtually) going to my first therapy appointment of 2021 this week.
Remember to be kind to yourself and take things day by day but also try to understand yourself.